Ordinaire

Do you think that with our life partners, the love should feel extraordinary? By extraordinary I mean the novels, fantasy kind  - where both can't stop smiling, laughing, supporting each other, have endless conversations etc.? This seeks perfectionism, makes you feel special. 

Anything to be said about ordinary love? 

Ordinaire

Illuminate me, she said

Am I what you had been seeking

Am I the muse to the book you’ll never write

Am I the genesis of your fantasy

Am I your extraordinaire love

No, he replied.

Enlighten me, she said

Why then, should I stay

Why when I don’t even light a fire

Why would you care if you don’t love

Why should I risk it if you won’t

(Silence, sobs)

You are my light,

For I do care about you

For I cherish the time we spend together

For even when we run out of things to talk about, we survive

For we smoke the same cigarettes

You are my fire,

For we can laugh and cry without explaining

For you are the blessing I didn’t pray for

For you make me rethink my fantasies

For you make me redefine my solace

You are my flame,

For in our subsistence, you have helped me grow

For now and you are all I have

For even if we don’t commit, we connect

For we do so, in ways enigmatic

You are my inferno,

For your simplicity is too sibylline to write about

For we love even when we are not in love

For I do not deserve you and you may not know this yet

But true love is ordinaire.

Aditya Longani

29 May, 2018

Special thanks to Kanika Rana for her take on the ordinaire